Encircle me, I need to be taken down

Spelled out your name and list the reasons
Pain of heart
Don't call me back
I imagine you when I was distant
Non-insistent
I follow suit and laid out on my back
Imagine that
A million hours left to think of you
And think of that

Calm down, I'm calling you to say
I'm capsized, erring on the edge of safe
Calm down, I'm calling back to say
I'm home now
And coming around
Coming around
Nobody likes to but I really like to cry
Nobody likes me
Maybe if I cry
Encircle me, I need to be taken down.

- Tegan and Sara, "The Con"

The pain that's soon to come is so necessary, because this is ridiculous, but I am so afraid of it. As much as I would like, in theory anyway, to move on, the actual process is terrifying. I don't want to. I would rather curl up in my room all day and cry and say Oh poor me.


You'd rather be a bitch
Than be an ordinary broken heart.

- The Dresden Dolls, "Good Day"


I wonder what it says about me that all Tegan and Sara songs seem to remind me of our relationship and its demise, and all Dresden Dolls songs seem to remind me of me? Wait - I can think of an exception.


There's a war inside of me;
Do I cause new heartbreak to write a new broken song?
Do I push it down or let it run me right into the ground?
I feel like I wouldn't like me if I met me.
Well I can't stop talking for fear of listening to unwelcome sound
And you haven't called me in weeks and honestly it's bringing me down
I feel like I wouldn't like me if I met me.

-Tegan and Sara, "You Wouldn't Like Me"


Oh, this is going to be so bad.