Take a deep breath.

Most of the time you go about thinking thinking thinking about things, sometimes to the point of overthinking things. And then there's times when you find yourself trapped in a moment with a feeling that overwhelms any thoughts you could possibly have. The feeling that I'm going to die right now right this very moment I can't go on because I can't stop feeling like this but I don't even know what it is but it won't stop and I can't make it go away because I don't know what it is and oh God please let it be over now please please please let me die because I can't possibly go on feeling like this and I can't make it stop and I'm going to die.
And you can't do anything about it except wait for it to pass. And once it's gone, your brain starts to work again, but slowly. So you just breathe, and try to do everything slowly, and do something that is not feeling like that. Anything. And you breathe. And you are glad that it is over.

Just breathe. Slow, deep, easy breaths.


More on this another time.