8 Things I Have Noticed Lately

1. Blogging is hard to do when you don't have access to a functioning computer.

2. Spending hours drooling over the NaNoWriMo website will not actually get a book written.

3. I have the communication skills of something that doesn't communicate.

4. Plans only matter if you actually go through with them.

5. Just because you used to be something doesn't mean you still are. This can be a positive, negative, or neutral occurence.

6. My mom somehow never gets less awesome. I'm not really sure how she does it. Magic may be involved.

7. Change can be terrifying, necessary, and good all at the same time. Example A: Barack Obama is aparently terrifying to some people, but his election is necessary and a good thing. Example B is more personal and will be commented upon once it has actually taken place. I'm terrified. But in a good, necessary sort of way!

8. Following up #3 and #4... it really only just occurred to me that my vision of the future might not actually be what someone else's vision of the future is. In the sense of futures being intertwined. Which is weird and scary because I always sort of assumed that things would fall into place and work out. But what if they don't unless you make them? How am I supposed to know when the right time is? What if I never feel "ready"? What if I get shot down even if I am ready? What if it just doesn't matter, and nothing goes the way I hope it will? Ugh. Point being, I overthink everything and don't communicate well or even at all sometimes and I need to freaking stop it because I'm screwing everything up. And it scares me.



"As for you, my galvanized friend, you want a heart. You don't know how lucky you are not to have one. Hearts will never be practical until they can be made unbreakable." - The Wizard, The Wizard of Oz