40 degrees

Why is it 1:30 AM and only 40 degrees outside? Why didn't I have to put mittens or a winter coat on to walk the dogs? How come my horses don't need their blankets for the first night in a month? Why is my formerly tundra-like paddock turning slushy and brown? It's winter, goddammit, what the fuck?

What are you doing, New England, you sneaky creature?

Available...

Available: 19-year-old female looking for full- or part-time employment. 3 years experience shoveling stalls, babying horses and bossing bratty kids around. Loves animals, likes kids unless they're annoying, likes adults unless they're annoying and/or condescending. Good at faking politeness even if you deserve to be smacked upside the head. Excellent references. Multiple facial piercings but owns at least one nice shirt. Openly queer and knows she can't be fired for it. Likes physical labor / can climb ladders and lift heavy things. Doesn't mind custodial work. Can count. Feels fairly confident she could operate a cash register and scanner if someone showed her how.
For more information contact that hippie that hangs out in the basement of the Union.




[I really wish I could actually submit this.]

Rhett Miller - Question

I AM SO IN LOVE WITH THIS SONG.


[There are so many more productive things I could be doing....]


Someday somebody's gonna ask you a question that you should say yes to...

*Swoon.*

Mayday Parade - Jamie All Over

Jamie All Over - Mayday Parade


I had a dream last night
We drove out to see Las Vegas
We lost ourselves in the bright lights
I wish you could have seen us
Begging for change to get home
Or at least San Francisco
Let's put a ten on the high card
And spend a summer on the West Coast

Down and to the left
(Here's the map and the pen; the place you pointed at)
Be California's best
(All I ask, all I ask)

And please don't tell me that I'm dreaming
When all I ever wanted was to
Dream another sunset with you
If I roll over when it's over
I'll take this Cali sunrise with me
And wake up with the fondest memories

We made love by the ocean
As the waves crashed around you
Sunsets never were so bright
And the skies never so blue
You opened up into my arms
And we laughed as I held you
I'll never go back to Georgia
Not at least till I have to

Down and to the left
(Here's the map and the pen; the place you pointed at)
Be California's best
(All I ask, all I ask)

And please don't tell me that I'm dreaming
When all I ever wanted was to
Dream another sunset with you
If I roll over when it's over
I'll take this Cali sunrise with me
And wake up with the fondest memories
Memories

I had a dream last night
We drove out to see Las Vegas
We lost ourselves in the bright lights

And please don't tell me that I'm dreaming
When all I ever wanted was to
Dream another sunset with you
If I roll over when it's over
I'll take this Cali sunrise with me
And wake up with the fondest memories

We made love by the ocean
As the waves crashed around you
(Memories)
Sunsets never were so bright
And the skies never so blue
(Memories)
You opened up into my arms
And we laughed as I held you
(Memories)
I'll never go back to Georgia
Not at least till I have to

Down and to the left

Quote of the day - 11/26/08

"There isn't a train I wouldn't take, no matter where it's going."
- Edna St. Vincent Millay



I just happened upon this quote and liked it, so imagine my surprise when I wiki'd Edna St. Vincent Millay and found out she was a Maine-born, bisexual poet. So much awesomeness before the 1950s! I love random learning!

Would you...

Would you still love me if I shaved my head? If I pierced my lip? If I lost weight, or gained it? Would you be attracted to me if I didn't look like me? What if I told you what I look like now isn't me? Would you think I was cute if I wore boys' clothing? If I wore dresses and makeup and flirted and twirled? If I taped down my chest and tried to lower my voice? If I said "fuck it" and just wore what I wanted to?

Would you still want to be my friend if you knew what a geek I am? How about hippie? Wannabe-goth-punk-emo-whatever? Would you want to be around me at my most hyperactive? At my most depressed? Would you want to be with me if you knew that sometimes I really really really want to be boring? Would you be able to accept that sometimes I don't want what's best for me, or that sometimes I don't know what I want at all?

Would you respect me even after you realized I really do panic at the thought of doing simple math problems in front of people, or that I actually like the way my scars look? Would you be proud of me even if I didn't graduate on time, or even at all? If I didn't write my books? Would you help me when I'm too stubborn or scared to ask? Would you hold me if I were scared, and would you know that's all I really want? Could you make the world stop spinning, even for a few minutes? If I wanted to run away and be somebody else, would you go with me? If I never wanted to leave here, would you stay with me? If I tried something and didn't succeed right away, would you know I was trying? Would it matter? Would it matter enough? Would you see through my cynicism, that no one deserves anything and I don't make wishes anymore? Would you understand that love doesn't solve everything, no matter how much you want it to? Would you want to try anyway?

Is there anyone out there with whom love wouldn't feel like a compromise?

8 Things I Have Noticed Lately

1. Blogging is hard to do when you don't have access to a functioning computer.

2. Spending hours drooling over the NaNoWriMo website will not actually get a book written.

3. I have the communication skills of something that doesn't communicate.

4. Plans only matter if you actually go through with them.

5. Just because you used to be something doesn't mean you still are. This can be a positive, negative, or neutral occurence.

6. My mom somehow never gets less awesome. I'm not really sure how she does it. Magic may be involved.

7. Change can be terrifying, necessary, and good all at the same time. Example A: Barack Obama is aparently terrifying to some people, but his election is necessary and a good thing. Example B is more personal and will be commented upon once it has actually taken place. I'm terrified. But in a good, necessary sort of way!

8. Following up #3 and #4... it really only just occurred to me that my vision of the future might not actually be what someone else's vision of the future is. In the sense of futures being intertwined. Which is weird and scary because I always sort of assumed that things would fall into place and work out. But what if they don't unless you make them? How am I supposed to know when the right time is? What if I never feel "ready"? What if I get shot down even if I am ready? What if it just doesn't matter, and nothing goes the way I hope it will? Ugh. Point being, I overthink everything and don't communicate well or even at all sometimes and I need to freaking stop it because I'm screwing everything up. And it scares me.



"As for you, my galvanized friend, you want a heart. You don't know how lucky you are not to have one. Hearts will never be practical until they can be made unbreakable." - The Wizard, The Wizard of Oz